Sunday, March 27, 2011

I am, I think, I Know. . .

I am, I think, I know,.....

I am: A two year survivor (no WARRIOR) of Breast Cancer.
I think: about food all the time.
I know: less and less every day. I learn more about what I what I don’t know or what I thought I new.
I want: to be able to live so that no matter when that last day comes, my life will have counted for eternity.
I have: a hard time moving out of my comfort zones.
I dislike: when I see someone teased, belittled or bullied.
I miss: Eating anything I like and as much of it as I like and still be skinny (like when I was a kid).
I fear: Doing anything in public.
I feel: Very deeply about other‘s feelings and their pain and suffering..
I hear: Songs. Always in my head. Always the birds outside.
I smell: not anymore, I just showered.
I crave: Anything sweet. I would rather sweet than the best meat and potato dinner in the world.
I search: For my purpose in life. What God wants from me with this “second chance” at life.
I wonder: Is this it? Could it be He‘s done with me?.
I regret: Sweating all the small stuff in life. REALLY small.
I love: My roudy, misbehaved, anxiety-ridden, disobedient, self-willed Lab, Buster.
I care: About people who are hurting.
I am always: hours early.
I worry: about my tomorrows. I know I’m commanded not to. But it’s there.
I remember: almost everything from childhood.
I have: All that I need and it‘s always enough.
I dance: Never. Two left feet. They don’t move in any form of coordination.
I sing: Always. If not outloud, in my heart, but not in public. Old hymns pop in first.
I don’t always: Put on my happy face or use my inside voice.
I argue: About what‘s for dinner ---- every day.
I write: poetry. Letters then hit “delete.”
I lose: grocery lists, a lot. Keys. Tops to pans.
I wish: I could buckle down and lose the rest of this weight. I’m always on the fence.
I listen: for quiet.
I don't understand: War, abuse, killing, torture, neglect.
I can usually be found: at home or at my sister’s home.
I need: A new car.
I forget: everything. I used to have the memory of an elephant.
I am happy: A deep happy - yes. On the surface, I’m quiet, don’t smile much, and people think I’m Unhappy, mad, or depressed.


Cora said...

This is great....I may just have to use this and fill in my own answers. Makes for a good post and makes me search my heart for those answers.
Thanks for sharing yours and for your lovely visit are always welcome at my place.
Blessings to you!

Patty Sumner said...

I love this Cora. We think alike on so many things. I love visiting with you. I am always blessed! So be blessed my Sister in blessed!

*Linda Pinda* said...

I love you.

"Just Me - NC Beth" said...

This was so good! And there were several that you and I are the same on!



Megan said...

Cora! You should NEVER delete the poetry you write. Why would you do such a thing? And you delete letters, too? Holy cow! Sorry, I'm not criticizing you. Honest, I'm not. On the "I forget" issue -- I seem to be forgetting my cell phone lately, dadgumitall! I ask you, how do we manage to get through the day without our cell phones? I loved your creative (and honest) post. It made me smile, as usual. -Megan-

KathyB. said...

I enjoyed this. I learned a little more about you and am so glad .

BTW, those Labs, I have 4 of them and they are the best dogs, even if they can be a bit stubborn. The best thing about that is they are stubborn in their love for us!

Tammy@Simple Southern Happiness said...

Happiness comes from within and when its there it will shine through. Keep Jesus and your faith there first and not worry about tomorrow or what people think.
True there will be days as you know who does not want you happy in Christ and will do everything to rob it. Keep strong in the lord dear one.

Love your post, we see you are one fantastic person.

Anonymous said...

Isn't that a great suprise, the spinach! I always keep and re-try seeds that didn't work for me one year because somehow some of them do better the second. My SIL taught me that! Love your list. Thanks for posting it!