Monday, December 1, 2008

Daybook Entry - December 1, 2008


FOR TODAY (December 1, 2008)...

Outside My Window It's sunny and there is a breeze blowing the leaves around the driveway. It rained yesterday with strong winds at times, so most of the oak leaves, etc., came falling down. It was fun to watch Buster chasing those wet leaves. The birds are pushing the huge sycamore leaves around the ground at the feeder looking for seed. I need to get out there and feed them.

I am thinking. . . Wednesday is coming much to quickly. My last chemo session. A while back, I stated I just couldn't understand how people just kept coming back for that awful stuff, willing to get so sick time after time. But here I am, going for number 6. Sometimes during the worst parts, it doesn't feel like it, but looking back at it all, I know that the Lord has walked with me through those times.

I am thankful for HATS! Having a bald head is a whole new ball game for me, believe me. Since we have had some chilly weather lately, I've learned that bald heads get VERY cold! My sister was so kind to give me the softest, warmest hat that she knitted! I just love it!

From the kitchen... All done with turkey left overs! Tonight is a Mexican casserole!

I am wearing... My usual --- black slacks, tee shirt, no shoes!

I am creating... A list of all the stuff I need to do before Wednesday.

I am going... To the post office to mail packages.

I am reading... Very little. My eyes have gotten a lot worse since starting chemo, but I want to wait until all this is over before getting another eye exam.

I am hoping... To get laundry all done before Wednesday. I also need to get some angels cut out ahead of time so I can just sit and stitch next week.

I am hearing... Buster snoring behind me. Ever since he was a puppy, he has claimed that spot behind my computer chair. It's where he sleeps the best. I hate to move as a sleeping dog gets into NO trouble!

Around the house... So much to do. Don't even know where to start.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week. . . Tie up loose ends before Chemo on Wednesday. Go back Thursday for the Neulasta shot. Then it's all downhill from there.

Here is picture thought I am sharing. . .

Guess who???? That's right -- it's me!!! You know, when you are a kid, time seems to stand still. People who are 60 years old seem older than the earth itself when you are young! Now???? It seems like yesterday when that picture was taken. I've often thought about the roads I've traveled, people I've met, decisions I've made, etc., and how any one of those done differently could have changed the direction of my life totally. I've often wondered, when we get to Heaven, will the Lord show us the "could have been's", and all the ways our lives could have turned out had we made different choices??? Like that old song says, I do have some regrets. But mostly, I'm thankful for the ways the Lord has taken me. He's always been there, always cleaned up my mistakes, always forgave me, always loved me, and always gave me second, even third chances. Isn't He great?

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Paula said...

I, too, am the middle child of five...hope you have a great week

PianoPlayer said...

Yep. That looks like you.
How did we get to be 60 anyhow???

Jan and Tom's Place said...

Hi Cora...

I'm glad you're seeing sunshine...we're not and haven't in several days!!

It sounds as though you and Buster are getting on alot better! He's such a cutie.

Glad to hear you're still doing the angels...because all of the angels I bought from you last Christmas will be gone after this Christmas!! They're just beautiful!


Dani said...

We just filled our bird feeder and love watching them....I'll be praying this week as you wind up the chemo....been rough, hasn't it? I wonder how soon your hair will start growing again?
Love the photo!

Linda said...

The LAST one - YIPPEE! I hope that this one treats you much kinder. You will be on my mind this week!! hugs, Linda

Julie said...

Yay!! The last chemo trip. I loved the picture of you. Hope Wednesday is better then expected. Julie

Living Life with a Joyful Heart said...

Congratulations!!!!!!!! Last chemo that is awesome, the worst part is over.The light at the end of tunnel will start shinning now, I am sooooooooooo happy you did it.I know those days when you just want to throw in the towel, but give yourself a big hug you did it. I will be praying for you on wednesday.
ps it wont be long till your hair starts growing in after that,but i will tell you only my hair dresser and I know what color my hair came in(lol).

Lainie said...

Hi Cora, This is my first time here. I love how you share your heart.

I just wanted you to know there was someone else praying for the Lord to hold you in His Everlasting Arms during this part of your journey. I'll be praying for you on Wednesday...

papel1 said...

Good luck on the last treatment. Maybe your hair will start to grow. I love the picture of when you were young. Good luck for tomorrow.

LindaSueBuhl said...

Cora - I wanted to let you know my husband and I are praying for you to have excellent response to chemotherapy with a sense of peace and contentment with your situation. Selfishly - I'm praying you get strong fast and your hair grows back in fabulous looking! I'm losing my hair due to an autoimmune problem and I feel your chill dear friend! Love reading your honest responses. Bless you!

SweetAnnee said...

Just came by to check on you..SO glad your last chemo is coming .. I too am thankful for hats in this COLD weather. Mine has grown a bit yet..but the radiaiton makes
it take so much longer.. Maybe you will start getting hair by the first of the year!!

Praying for you..Deena

Lea of Farmhouse Blessings said...

Cora, I do believe you are the cutest little girl I've ever seen. What a dolly! And I just want to hug that little girl and let her know that everything will be alright!

So glad that soon #6 and all its baggage will be behind you. Wonder if your hair grow back really curly? Two girls I know lost straight hair and grew back kinky, curly hair???? How does that happen?

You know, I think when we get to heaven all our mistakes and paths that "might have been" will be gone from memory. Nothing will remain but the sweet ending and a blessed forever in heaven.

Love ya,

Shabby Olde Potting Shed said...

When I got up this morning, I thought of you and prayed. I didn't even realize today was chemo day again... so truly I believe God stirred my heart with thoughts of you.
I hope today goes really well.
I'll be praying extra hard for the next week. I'm sure everyone will!
Your picture is so darling. It is funny how TIME is different in our memories.
Keep your sweet lil head warm!!!
Love ya my friend!

Farm Chick Paula said...

I love the picture of young Cora!! You looked so sweet in that picture!

Tom and Cindy said...

I have been following your blog for some time. Today is Blog Comment Day. You certainly do have a talent with words and pictures.
I hope you have a perfect day

Oma aka Meme said...

sending you hugs and prayers from Meme

Stacy Lambert said...

How cute. I'm going to post a picture of me now when I was about 2 yrs. old. I hope you're feeling good these days. Have a great holiday. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Love and hugs,

Anne Fannie said...

Hi Cora,
Just stopped by tonight to check on how you are doing. Glad to hear the chemo is almost over with.
You are in my prayers...
Love, Ann

Patty H. said...

Well, I'm the baby of the family.
come over to my blog, I've nominated you fro an award.

Say It With Roses said...

I am so glad to read that you are doing your last chemo and now things will get a easier for you!

Your Buster is a sweetie! Love those Labs!

Your angels are sooooo sweet!

Would love for you to visit my blog and say "Hi."

Toby Parsons said...

God bless you Cora, and I LOVE your childhood picture!

*Linda Pinda* said...

Cora: I LOVE that picture!!! Still the same beautiful eyes...

I've got a feeling we will see some of our unwalked paths at the day of judgement, but I am confident that in heaven... there are NO REGRETS!!! ONLY JOY!!! And, especially for Miss Cora, I picture it to be more like "It's a Wonderful Life". We will see and know how our lives were meant to be as they were, and how we affected others along the journey.

You are in my prayers, especially for a smooth last chemo and recovery!!!

Love you to bits... *Linda*