Monday, October 20, 2008

Daybook Entry for October 20, 2008


FOR TODAY (October 20, 2008)...

Outside My Window It's a sunny, cool, breezy day. Oak leaves are turning brown and falling, as are the acorns (which seem so small this year)! I sure hate stepping on them in my bare feet!!!!! I'm wishing I had enough strength to take Buster for a long walk!

I am thinking. . . I love these few days that we Floridians can call "Fall" and actually open our windows and air things out. I am also thinking whether I should or should not call the Cancer center about my breathing. I seem to be breathless with the slightest activity anymore and it's not going away. A new symptom with this chemo thing. Maybe it's just normal, I don't know.

I am thankful for The best eggplant parmasian dinner last night with creamy alfredo noodles!

From the kitchen... Not sure yet. I have noodles left over, so will find something quick to go with those. I have some frozen cooked chicken that I might add, breadcrumbs on top, bake a little. . . . . yum! Maybe some homemade bread. My sister keeps talking about bread ---- my all time favorite thing!

I am wearing... Blue tee shirt, undershirt (I'm cold) black slacks, a flannel shirt, and a little hat to keep my bald head warm! Why am I so cold all the time lately????

I am creating... Angels as fast as I can. Seems to be selling well these days. Although I really haven't had much strength to do much cutting or stitching. I can't stand that long anymore. Bummer!

I am going... Absolutely nowhere. I can get as far as my sister's front door, and I'm thankful for that.

I am reading... Catching up on my wonderful friends' blogs! So inspiring and you all lift me up so much!

I am hoping... To somehow get a little stronger before the next chemo next Wednesday. This one really sent me for a loop. Right now, I'm wanting to call it quits on the chemo. I think I've had all I can take. Unless I feel better by next Wednesday, I'm just not going back.

I am hearing... Nice, quiet hymns playing in the background on my computer.

Around the house... So many things that need to be done that it is depressing! Right now, it will all have to wait until I feel better. Keeping up with the wash is about all I can do right now.

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week. . . Somehow, I have to get to the post office and the grocery store! And I need to do laundry again. How can two people make so much laundry anyways?????.

Here is picture thought I am sharing...

I felt so humbled and honored when Kathie told me she was walking in a Breast Cancer event and had bought these angels from me, added the names of people she cared about, and attached them to the shirt she would be wearing in this walk! I have been so thankful, strengthened and amazed at how many people have lifted me up when I couldn't walk, prayed when I just didn't have a prayer left inside me, and gave me a song when mine was gone!!!!! Thank you, Kathie, and all of you, a million times over!

I'm so glad to be able to participate with the others in this Notebook entry. You can visit The Simple Woman's blog



Marlayna said...

What a really nice blog you have here. A beautiful rendition of Amazing Grace to listen to while I read your daybook.

I pray you are feeling better soon and that God makes his plans for you and your treatment clear for you to see.

Renna said...

Cora, I've heard that much of a person's body heat is lost through their head. I have a friend who lives in Minnesota who's husband is bald. She told me he has to sleep in a hat because otherwise he'd get too cold.

I pray for you often, but sometimes the Holy Spirit burdens my heart so deep for you in prayer that I can hardly catch my breath. I found that interesting when you said you're having trouble breathing. I think when those times happen to me that I mentioned, that He's giving me just a glimpse of your pain.

Don't give up, Cora. I don't mean the chemo. You should go whichever direction you feel the Lord leading you, but don't give up your hope in Him.


Linda said...

Hi Cora, I love reading you daybook each week. I pray you will feel good enough to stay on plan for treatment if that is God's will. Hugs, Linda

Ruthie said...

Oh Cora, please don't give up on the need to get rid of all the cancer! From friends who have had this, they all say how perfectly horrible they felt at the time - but it was all worth it in the end when they were really cancer free! Anyhow, that's the nurse in me talking.
Now to the friend - I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this. Just hang in there. And maybe talk to the Dr. about the symptoms you're having to see if they can change some of the meds around to give you some relief from the symptoms. How many treatments do you still have???

My prayers are with you.

Shabby Olde Potting Shed said...

Father God,
Please take Cora in your arms and just hold her so tight that she feels the very warmth of your love.
Please guide her in all her decisions, ... so she can lean on your strength to see her through. Thank You Lord..we love you. Thy will be done.
(Im hugging you Cora. )

LindaSueBuhl said...

Oh bless you friend - you are cold due to the effects of the chemo on your whole body - the baldness doesn't help of course. Like when you have a fever and yet get the chills. Please don't be anxious friend - it is hard enough to get through this dark valley without piling on more -- each day will have just enough strength for that day - we are promised our daily bread - not a week's rations. Please be gentle with yourself - and your plans for supper sound delicious! Will add you to our daily meal prayers now also - DH and I like to pray together aloud and now will bug God about you getting some strength back!

papel1 said...

For someone who feels so crappy you sure describe such tasty meals! I would love to be in your kitchen! Take care.

Julie said...

Hoping you are feeling better and that you had a nice day. Your food always sound SOOO good. The angels you make are wonderful. Julie

Oma aka Meme said...

thank you for blessing me today with your daybook entry- I am hoping to do this also some day just as soon as I can figure out how to join-
huggles from Meme

Kay @ The Rustic Cottage said...

Dear Friend - please don't give up! I know that's easy for me to say. I'm not the one that is enduring all the physical discomfort. Lean harder and harder on the Lord. He will see you through this.

I pray for you every day!! I now that many others are too. We want you to be well and be cancer free.

Please call your doctor about your breathing and take care of yourself.

Much love and many prayers,

Joyfulsister said...

Hi Sis..
((((Gentle Hugz))).. I would call your nurse about the breathing, I remember my blood count was low and it had affected my breathing. I ended up sleeping on the downstairs couch because I got tired of climbing 12 steps to my bedroom. I could not go shopping had to sit more than I shopped. It is part of the chemo side effects, and the coldness too. So bundle up and please take it easy okay. I know you look around and see so much you want to do or need to do, but right now as you go through this journey there are things you will have to let go, or ask for help. You need to rest so you can heal.
There is a project I will be doing in your honor and I wanted to share it with you , Can you please email me your email addy..mine is

Luv ya Lorie

Anonymous said...

I began a link list of ladies I am praying for - you are on it!

Lea of Farmhouse Blessings said...

Dearest Cora, I wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything better for it. I feel at such a loss. I know you will make the right decision for you and I support you in whatever choice you make.

Just know that I love you and care so much that my hearts aches.


Oma aka Meme said...

praying for you today
hugs Meme