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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Just Got Back From Chemo #4!

I thought I would post right away, not knowing how I will feel later on when all this starts taking affect on me. Each chemo session seems to catch up with me earlier and earlier!

The oncologist seemed more than happy ---- ecstatic ---- would be the correct word, with how the "hole" where the tumor is located is progressing. "Excellent" was the word he used. So that made me really happy. In seeing how that was doing, he didn't seemed too concerned with my other whining complaints ---- like how I'm turning into a "salt lick"! I seem to be sooooo salty. My saliva, my lips, etc., is all like salt water. Even Buster seems to want to use my bald head as a salt lick!!!! All he said was, "If that's an invitation for ME to lick your head, you got another thought coming!" And dismissed that problem with, "Don't eat so much salt!"

The chemo went fine --- very boring 4 hours, really. Everyone around me getting their chemo seemed to fall asleep. Wish I could do that. But I was VERY irritated with a skinny rail of a woman across from me who did nothing but EAT the whole time we were there. First some kind of nutrition bar. Then someone came and brought her french fries, soup, a huge sandwich, etc., etc. Why is it that the skinny ones can eat so much, and I felt guilty sitting there eating my seedless grapes?????



In four hours time, you overhear a LOT of conversations, and sometimes it just makes you feel so sad for people. For instance, the nurse who called to arrange hospice care for one of the patients. You just know it's the end of the line, treatments didn't work, etc. I sat there and thanked the Lord that MY treatments seem to be doing what they are supposed to be doing at this time. But it does bring to the front of my thinking that someday. . . .it all might come back somewhere else, and I, too, will be making my end of life plans. But then again, don't we all face it sometime????? I wonder how these people can go through that without knowing for sure where they will spend eternity! The older I get, the more thankful I am for the solid, Bible-based teaching I've received down through the years. To know that in the moment of death, eternal life begins for me in the presence of my Lord. The peace that that thought brings is beyond description.

But I must say, it's the dying process that isn't the happiest to think about. And so I push that away A LOT!

Tomorrow I go back for that Neulasta shot, which is supposed to keep my blood count up and on track. Some say it is this shot that causes all the bad symptoms and sends you under the 18 wheeler for that week. I don't know ---- don't want to chance going without it to find out!

And so, here I begin my next 3 week journey of trying to find things that taste at least ok, sweating, peeing, and trying to find my bed. Poor Buster! He sits there with that look on his face that says, "Oh no, here we go again!" He does seem to understand when Mommy is under the weather.

One of the comments left for me mentioned a brand new blogger who is just starting her journey with breast cancer. I'm sure she could use all your prayers and encouragement, too. I looked at her pictures, and my heart just went out to her, knowing the road she will be travelling right behind me! Stacy's blog is located at:

Click hereFor Stacy's Blog!




Please give her your support and prayers!!!!

I keep forgetting to post my thank you list, so here we go:

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For these things, I thank you, Lord:
68. Knowing that friends are praying for me, holding me up when I can't stand upright!
69. Good reports from the Dr.!
70. Cooler weather!
71. My sister who has been so faithful in going with me to all these treatments.
72. Wonderful, soothing, comforting music when my soul is in turmoil!
73. God meeting all my needs in the midst of trials!
74. Buster growing up, acting more mature, obeying more, becoming more loving!
75. Bringing my Sister-in-Law through surgery.
76. For all the beautiful cards and gifts I've received from people I can no longer call strangers!!
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18 comments:

Julie said...

Hope your next few days are better than expected--still thinking of you and being inspired by your courage. julie

Oma aka Meme said...

my friend, praying for you- sigh- if
only chemo would have some good side effects along with the healing effects-
I am praying and holding u in my heart as the days go by.......I found a new lady blogging here who is starting her chemo today- I wish I knew how to send her link but I am following her so maybe some can find her that way and jump in with some encouragement- she is so new that she had no one commenting yet so lets pray someone will find her- her blog is called Stacy's stuff here on blogger

Linda said...

I'll be saying your name in prayer as usual and I hope that this time, you have an easier go of it!

Hugs, Linda

Dani said...

I am so glad I stopped by, Cora, I woke up early this morning and prayed for you, wondering if today was your chemo day...thought maybe it was....I'm so thankful it's working for you and will keep praying.

Shabby Olde Potting Shed said...

Hi Cora!
I am so happy to hear your GOOD NEWS!
OHHHHH NOW THAT MAKES ME HAPPY!
PRAISE THE LORD...
He used the word excellent?!!!
WHAT A GOD THING! HALLELUJAH CORA...
AND YOU KNOW... it's just like you to be thinking of someone else... ~ I will definitely visit your friends blog and will keep her in my prayers as well.
You are amazing.
Love ya girl
Eagle wings, and crumbcake!
AND GREEN GRAPES!
Lea
<*)))><

Wanita said...

Hi Cora, so glad that you got good news from the dr. I'm continuing to hold you up in prayer.

It's such a blessing to know that nothing can separate from the Lord. Blessings and hugs to you.

Wanita

Ruthie said...

You were in my prayers today - and will be all this week as you go through the "18 Wheeler" stage.
SO glad the treatment is working.
And it's good to know the Lord IS in control and He is upholding you each and every day.

Hugs. Ruthie

Linda said...

Hi Cora! I'm happy to read the good news! :) God is definately providing in this one!

I had to laugh about the irritation on the skinny woman 'though.. my husband is just the same.. he eats sweets and pours sugar on everything, but he stays underweight.. whereas I.... well, we all know that.. *lol*

greetings from holland!

Kay @ The Rustic Cottage said...

Stopping by to say hi and send you love. Hope that you will feel better these next few days. I'm still praying. Love you!

2 Much Farm Primitives said...

Keep hangin' in there Cora. Sounds like you're making great progress.

Love you girl,
Vic

Farm Chick Paula said...

Just stopped by to tell you I'm thinking of you, Cora... and I'll be praying for you the next few days! I hope to keep hearing more good news!!

DaizyDonna said...

Cora, I had to come by and check on you!! Im so happy the treatment are working!! And see your Sweet brave trail as you have gone through this!!
I am awaiting the results of my Moms Biopsy! The days are so long waiting!! Holding on to the "Maybe the Doctor is wrong" As that voice in my head, hears my mom say, I have Cancer.
I remember as you started your journey thinking how brave you are, And wondered If I would have the strength. We'll see!! ?
Love ya Cora! Congrats on the great news the Doc gave ya sweetie :)
Donna

Nicole said...

Glad to hear how you are doing. I'm glad you have another treatment down the shute. Hope these next few days are better than last treatment.

Love,
Nicole

Kelly~Once in a Blue Moon Primitives said...

Cora,

You always amaze me and inspire me. I am so proud of the way you have handled this and are such an inspiration to so many others. I love you my friend. You are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Kelly

Lea of Farmhouse Blessings said...

Praising with you on that good report from the doctor.

Just get the rest your mind & body needs to fight the battle. I'm here lifting up your arms (in prayer) like Aaron did for Moses!

Love you my friend,
Lea

LindaSueBuhl said...

Thank you for always letting us know where you really are - I hate the chirpy fake "I'm Fine" stuff and you also don't wallow in the bad parts - straightforward discussion of what is really happening helps people know how to pray for someone. Strange about the salt thing - and your doctor has a wicked sense of humor! Hang in there - your fan club is out here praying!

Blondie ~ Vintage Primitives said...

praying for you daily; you are inspiration and love

Blondie

KATHERINELLEN said...

Cora,
My prayers are with you....Katherinellen