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Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Chemo School!!!

I had to go to school today --- chemo school. In some ways, it was very informative and did ease my mind for what's ahead of me. At least I'll know that when things happen, it's normal, to be expected, and will pass. Like hair falling out, nausea, constipation, diahrrea, fatigue, blistery fingers,etc., etc., etc. It seemed that the list went on and on. I was given a million things to read about the chemo drugs I will be taking, what they do in the body, how it works, etc. I was also given a beautiful cookbook for cancer/chemo patients all set up according to different symptoms and problems and what to eat to help it along.

Again, my faithful, trusty sister came with me. I wasn't sure that was a wise move, but wanted the extra set of ears as we seem to hear things differently sometimes. I'm glad she sat next to me and not across from me -- at least I could not see her face. This nurse was a little "overboard", if you know what I mean. I guess there are people, especially the little, very old ladies who need things spelled out in great detail, and this nurse had her little "class" all memorized and down to a fine art and there was NO hurrying it up at all!!!!! So we just sat and sat and sat and listened and listened and listened! You watch, this will come back at me in a few days when I will be sooooo glad that she told me this stuff when I'm sitting hugging my toilet bowl wondering if it's my last day on earth, and I'll hear her voice in the back of my head saying, "This is very normal and will pass, my dear!"

And so, I came home with an armload of books, pamphlets, papers, and so on. I'll just be glad when it's all over and done with tomorrow.

I know one thing, I am NOT OVER the scan episode yet. This nurse wanted to see my port site and I became very defensive, covering that chest site with two hands and stiffening and backing up without even thinking!!!!! How in the world am I going to sit there in front of all the experienced chemo patients tomorrow and let them stab me in the chest without a fight for my life!!!!!! There's got to be a easier way!
I remember when my sister went through this, I wondered how in the world she went back time after time just to have them stab you in the chest when you got there????? She told me that she got to think of it as her "lifeline" to getting better. I guess I still have some self-talk to do because right now the only visual I have quite nightmare-ish!!!!!

I'm just so glad, though, to finally be off and running with this thing. It seems like it took forever to get to this point, doesn't it? I was told today that there will be 4 of these chemo treatments, three weeks apart, so that's 12 weeks of this.
Then radiation and surgery and who knows what else. For right now, I'll fight my way through the chemo part.

Who would have thought I'd be blogging all about this stuff for the world to see???? It's been so great to meet so many wonderful people here, to know that we can pray for one another through difficult times like this, and know that we are as close as just a prayer away. I'm amazed that you all keep coming back here as this seems to be the topic every day. But it has been my life lately, believe me. I'll be so glad when I can put it all behind me and close the book on this chapter in my life.

I do know one thing: Those of you who have walked this path and have been willing to tell ME YOUR stories are just the most wonderfl people in the world. I have so much appreciated the fact that you walked through this and are willing to share with me your journey!!!!! Thank you so much, all of you!

13 comments:

2 Much Farm Primitives said...

Cora, one thing I've learned, God always puts us through these trials to help someone else. You'll probably never know all the women you're helping through this "blogging". I've never experienced what you (and others like you) have gone through. Maybe I will, or maybe I won't. But one thing's for sure. You have inspired me sooo much with your great attitude, tremendous strength and sense of humor. So many times when I feel myself getting "down", I think...now wait a minute. If my friend Cora can go through what she's going through, I can certainly go through this :) You go girl. You'll have many jewels in your crown ;)

Love ya,
Vic

Debra said...

I could not say it any better than 2 much farm primitives did.
We keep coming back because you are really giving us something we all need. It's different for each one, but there is a strength in you from Him that is so evident, and lovely. If a good attitude is catching, I want to get it.
Love, Debra

Katy said...

I have still been praying for you Cora! I pray that the chemo won't have the horrid affects on you that are expected. I totally agree with 2 much farm primitives! She is so right! You are such a great example and inspiration!!!! xoxo

Jen said...

I'll add you to my prayer list, for sure! It's amazing to me how much the reactions of faith-filled people differ from those 'of the world'. I pray that your faith will continue to give you strength, peace and hope for the future. C><

CathyJean said...

Cora,
I think you are the bravest person I know! Praying for you, my dear friend.
Hugz,
Cathy

Wanita said...

Cora,

You are an inspiration for sure. I continue to pray for you.

Shabby Olde Potting Shed said...

Hey Cora,
Chemo school it IS.
You know, you might not "think" you are brave... or strong... but you ARE! I think 2 much farm primitives said it well: you WILL HAVE MANY JEWELS IN YOUR CROWN!!
I know I haven't gone through anything like you are,... nor do I know how you must feel... but I wanted to share something with you. When I went through that brain aneurysm thing.. I was so scared when I went in for that 4 vessel MRA? They go in through your groin , up to your brain... -- I was so afraid to get that catheter in my artery.. and my son Trent told me "Piece of cake Momma." Piece of crumbcake! Then he reminded me on the movie Casper of that goofy priest who said that. So now in our family when we are going through a trial, and walkin out the door to MEET IT?... WE SAY TO EACHOTHER FOR ENCOURAGEMENT: PIECE OF CRUMB CAKE...
YOU ARE GONNA GET THROUGH THIS MISS CORA!
CRUMBCAKE!
LOVE LEA

Julie said...

We have two women in our neighborhood right now fighting the breast cancer battle. So far, both are winning. They, as well, as you, are such inspirations to me. I pray for your well-being...mentally, physically and spiritually. You CAN do it. Julie

Joyfulsister said...

Hi My sister..
I just wanted to say thank you from my heart for your prayers I have an update on my blog. Cora I told Juri that when I was in the waiting room by myself because my Husband had to stay with my daughter, I started to think of you and Juri in the waiting room giggling together and it surely brought a smile to my face. I know that the Lord will continue to carry you through along with all the prayers of your sisters who will be beside you through it all as well. I know one thing that helped me with my nausea was a special ginger candy, please email your address at joyfulsister60@msn.com I would love to send you some from Hawaii.

Hugz Lorie

Hugz Lorie

Vintage Linen Treasures said...

Hi Cora
Vic at 2 much farm primitives is so right! You ARE such an amazing woman and you will have so many jewels in your crown. Parying for you.
Patricia

Toni said...

I know I`ve said it before,but you really are an inspiration to so many.People keep coming back to read your blog because they want to support you and are concerned for you!We want to know how we can pray for you and encourage you.You have given so many people strength and hope through all you are going through.Thank you for sharing this experience with us!!

PineyWoodsPrims~Dena said...

Hi Cora,
Just wanted to tell you that you are in my prayers everyday. God is a awesome God and he will get you through this trial. I know at times it feels like all hope is gone when they start sticking you and you start to hurt. But know Cora that God is strengthing you to be stronger in faith and love and life. You are one tough cookie and God is working through you everyday. I just know. God never puts more on us than we can take.
Here is a little message for you.
Bless you Cora.
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"The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. The LORD is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation for his anointed one. Save your people and bless your inheritance; be their shepherd and carry them forever." Psalm 28:7-9

Me said...

Hi - I came across your blog from reading the blog of a friend of a friend of a friend, or something like that! I prayed for you.

" . . . and underneath are the everlasting arms." The Bible