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Saturday, June 7, 2008

New Pathways!

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It's amazing how a one-hour doctor's visit can change the course of your life forever! Even though we know something is wrong and that we should do something about it, we try to act normal, do normal things, and cause our days and weeks (and even years!) to go on as we think "normal" should be.

In the back of my mind, I always knew that "what is -- IS!" And I don't know how many times I have begged, pleaded, pushed, yelled at, and taken someone to have something checked out. Some things just don't go away. And when you see these things getting worse, you just know. . . .

And so, finally, I went. The pain was getting worse, the lump was getting worse, the sore was open and not healing. . . . . ya think I need a Dr????

The news was not good, as I expected. I could have told the Dr. that. He did the breast exam, asked a lot of questions, then told me that he was 99% sure it was advanced breast cancer. There is something about knowing this in your heart beforehand. . . . . but to hear it outloud is a whole 'nuther ballgame, believe me. And you all of a sudden begin to visualize that I have reached the turn off on the highway of life onto the short road that leads to heaven's gates!!!! At least, that's how it felt sitting on that table with my little scrap of a paper drape across my front!

News travels so fast, and I thank each and every one of you who have been praying for me during the past few days. I DO NOT have a firm diagnosis yet -- only a Dr. looking, squishing, prodding, poking, squeezing, etc. Things are being lined up for next week to start the process of testing, etc.

I wasn't sure I wanted to blog about this new detour in my life. I don't like to cause sadness, worry, anxiousness, etc., in other peoples' lives. On the other hand, not to be honest and open and ask for prayer when needed would only cause this blog to be fake, surface, and definitely NOT me!

I have always trusted the Lord before, and have always trusted Him for the needs of those that I love. I have watched Him gently lead my sister and my roommate down this road in the past few years, so why would I not trust Him for myself? I firmly believe that He knows the plans that He has for me, has carefully mapped it all out, and that when all is said and done, I will be singing, "Jesus Led Me All the Way!"

I don't know what is between point A and point B. I'm not even sure I've reached point A yet. But I sure would appreciate all your prayers as I begin the decision making process of it all. I've come to know and love so many of you through our blogs, and I definitely believe now that part of the purpose of all this is for reasons like this -- so that we can all pray for one another and bear each others' burdens.

Please join me as I begin my journey of thanks to God for all He has given me. I plan on ending all my posts with my "thankful" list -- perhaps you would like to do the same!

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For these things, I thank you, Lord:
1. Birds that sing, knowing that God will provide.
2. Music that soothes my soul.
3. Coffee that opens my eyes.
4. Buster's slobbery morning kisses.
5. Over-the-fence visits with my sister.
6. My blogging and internet friends.
7. God's never-failing love.

52 comments:

nancy huggins said...

You are in my Prayers Cora and I will be here any time you need me and will do whatever I can to help. Please let us know what is happening with every step you take.
We all love you very much.
Nancy

Juri said...

As your sister, I am having a lot of difficulty with all this! Seems like we have had a couple really challenging years with cancer...and I do not want you to have to go through it! So I find myself using my usual coping mechanism...."do the next thing". How right on you are with your emotions when you heard the word "cancer" come out of the doctor's mouth! Your stomach flips over once or twice, you go rather numb, and a fear grips you for a few moments....then sadness. We have all watched so many go through some tough times with cancer, and we feel some of the pain with them...but suddenly, you feel very alone, sitting there with such a drastic diagnosis sticking in your throat! Having gone down the long and lonely road, Cor, I can honestly say it is one moment at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time...just doing the next thing....and you can make it through. Take the friendships offered, the prayers sent up for you, the love of your family and friends...and cling to them. And rest in the loving arms of Jesus, and let Him give you the strength to make it through!

I love you, Cor!!!

Jur

Renna said...

I know of only one thing to say. God is still on His throne. I will be lifting you up to Him. (((hug)))

Katy said...

Oh my goodness....Cora...you are one of the sweetest people I have met. I am so thankful for your charm, humor, class and devotion to Christ. Please know I will be praying for you and if you ever need just to talk....please feel free to email me..ok?

thecountryblossom AT hotmail DOT com

I will pray that the dr is wrong and that this is not what he thinks. Use this time as a chance to reflect and strengthen... and preparation for fighting the good fight! IF this is cancer...know that I will constantly be praying for healing!

I can't imagine what you are thinking or how hard this is...but know you have a LOT of people who truly care about you and who will be in deep prayer and petition to God on your behalf!

xoxo
Katy

Lea of Farmhouse*Blessings said...

Cora, you know my heart about these circumstances. I am here for you, fasting, praying and believing that the Lord will be your strength as you face this Goliath in your life. And He will!

Love you, dear sister.

Hugs,
Lea

Pam said...

Cora, I only wish that I could be there with you.
Please know that you are in my prayers and will continue to be.
Hugs,
Pam

Toni said...

Cora,
I want you to know that you are in my prayers.Remember this from Jeremiah (Can`t remember the exact place)For I know the plans I have for you,they are to prosper and not to harm you...
Also, Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Him who stengthens me. You are loved by many!If you ever need to talk,please e-mail me at mom2110114@yahoo.com or leave me a message on my blog!!

Toni said...

sorry there was a typo in that e-mail address I gave you.It`s mom2119114@tahoo.com

Marilyn@Mixed Bouquet said...

I will be praying for you! Renna told me about your post. Yes, He is still on the throne.

I imagine that posting this was very difficult, but yes, others want to pray and you need those prayers. I will be checking back.

Wendy said...

Cora, I am praying for TOTAL HEALING!! Just remember that "IF GOD IS FOR YOU WHO CAN BE AGAINST YOU"!! He Reigns Victorious!!! The battle has already been WON!! Take care my friend and know that we are here for you!! God Bless!~Wendy

papel1 said...

What better support group than all your online friends. You are cherished by many.
Judy

*Linda Pinda* said...

My Precious Cora...
I entered the online world to make sales... and made friends.

I joined online groups to find information and support... and found a sister.

I shared my heart when I needed comfort and prayers ...and found a mother.

In this great big world, God holds us in the palm of His hand and brings souls together for so many wonderous purposes.

You are such a light to this world. Part of me is choked with sorrow that you are facing these challenges. Part of me is glowing with love, knowing that, in this too, the Lord is using you as a beautiful instrument of grace.

I love you so very much and I will be praying and fasting for you along with our precious sisters.

MUCH LOVE & PRAYER... *Linda*

Primgal55 said...

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayer,
hugs, Linda

Maryjane - The Beehive Cottage said...

DEar Sweet Cora,

You are in my thoughts and prayers! We are here for you dear and know how much you are loved! My life has changed because of you! The Lord will watch over you.

Love ya,
Maryjane

Coal Miners Daughter said...

Cora, You are in my prayers everyday..I know what you are going through as my husband had cancer in 1986 and again 10 years later in 1996 so far he is doing well, so we will keep you in our prayers ..seems like I know you
because I have heard so many good things about you from my Daughter Lea Love and Prayers,
Dotty

CathyJean said...

Cora,
You are in my prayers!! my dear new found blogger friend.
Take one moment, one step at a time, lean on the Lord. That is where there is strength and grace for the trial.
It had to be hard to share with us, but please know that I will be praying for you!
Hugz,
Cathy

Deb said...
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Deb said...

Cora, I will pray for you.

And this is the confidence that we have in Him, that; if we ask any thing according to His will, He heareth us:

And if we know that He hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him. 1John 5:14-15

Wanita said...

Cora, you are in my prayers. I pray the Lord will give you his peace and strength, and of course I will pray for healing for you, my dear, new bloggy friend.

Shabby Olde Potting Shed said...

Cora,
I just read your post, and then now... the thoughts and prayers of all these people... these FRIENDS.. of YOURS. I know we all stand in UNITY together ...IN FAITH... -- and BELIEVING that God HAS YOU IN THEE PALM OF HIS MIGHTY HAND...
My faith as of this past month, has never been stronger... I have SEEN what our God can do!
God BLESS you Miss Cora,
Love Lea
<*)))><

Counting Your Blessings said...

Father God, we love you. We know that you are holding your daughter close, because you love her too. Give her peace. Draw her to you more and more. And joy - oh, Father, only you bring true joy so we count on you now to bring it exceedingly abudundant above all that we can ask or even think! Thank you for how graciously you love us! -amen- Blessings... Polly

Mona said...

Cora, I'm sending up prayers for you.
Take each day as they come and try not to worry about tomorrow. Here are a few little words to help you through each day...Jesus said, "fear not". And, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Blessings from your Apronista sister,
Mona

Darlene said...

You are in my prayers.

God bless

Momstheword said...

Found you on Deb's blog. I'm so sorry that you may have cancer. God is still in control. It sounds like you will have lots of loving friends praying for you. And terrific support from your sister especially.

Julie said...

I read about your new challenge from Lea. I clicked right on over. I'm sorry--let's just hope the Dr. is wrong. My Dad was diagnosed with colon cancer 5 years ago. He has had three major surgeries and keeps going strong. Technology today is amazing. He will be 81 in August and thanks Heavenly Father everyday for his blessings. He always finds some. I will pray, hope and think of you often. Remember--"If God brings you to it, He will help you through it". Blessings to you. Julie

MEME16 said...

I am sorry- soft hugs and prayers -

Tina said...

Hi Cora, I read about your situation on Katy's blog. Sending prayers and hugs your way from Scotland.

Love, Tina xx

Nancy Jo said...

Cora,
Well I must admit you made me cry a bit, but your write up on your blog says a lot about you and how you are able to cope. I, on the other hand probably wouldn't be able to think clear enough to write anything.
You know we are all thinking of you and will be right where we always are wishing and praying for the very best for you.
NANCY JO

SweetAnnee said...

Cora, I love ya
I am here for you

You can email me ask anything..
I can call you..you can call me.
Take a deep breath..don't panic
Prayers are miraculous.

We'll walk together with God
thru this.you have lots of love.

I despise cancer!!

your friend indeed, Deena

Susie said...

Hi Cora,
I was so sorry to hear this news.
My prayers are with you.
gentle ((hugs))

Wilma said...

Dear Cora,
You are in my prayers.I wish you the best. I am a survivor of breast cancer for 1 year.With lots of prayer and high hopes(you need to keep those up) you Will get through it. If you ever need to talk or anything please let dont hesitate to get in touch with me. My email address is horselove57@aol.com or you can leave me a message on my blog site.

Love and prayers
Wilma Country Woman At Heart

This Country Girl said...

Cora,

I will be praying and believing with you in prayer. I've not "known" you long, but I can already tell you are a woman of faith! Please keep us posted!

Blessings,
Tammy

gailmarc said...

Cora, I wanted you to know that you are thought of often, and that I will keep you in my prayers. Gail

Dear Father,

I trust You to be with Cora through this difficult time. I trust in You to give her peace, to let her live with hope, to relieve her fears, and to let her know Your presence. I trust You to bring her friends and loved ones close to her during this time, that we might support each other, and that Your great hands might support us all. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

mammaof5js said...

We will definitely praying for you that the "joy of the Lord would be your strength", that the God of all comfort would bring you the peace that passes all understanding, that your doctors would have wisdom in making their diagnoses as well as prescribing treatment and that you will have the strength to ask for help when you need it from the people who love you. If there's anything we can do.
Love,
The Scott Fam

Cookie said...

I do not know you but God has placed you on my heart to pray with that of a warrior's prayer! Please pray with me, "Lord, I pray for You to bless Cora! Give her peace and I pray in the name of Jesus that you will HEAl her! Whether it is emotional or pysical or both I pray for healing through out her body! In the name of Jesus, Amen! "God is not limited to what He once did and He will continue to do New Things! God is not a one time God! Always trust, hope and believe!" I believe!

Kindra said...

Cora, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope the tests come out better than predicted. Your blog companions and friends will be there for you every step of the way.

Kate said...

I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis... Cancer is a very scary word. We have had lots of it in my family & I try so hard to take care of myself, because I am so afraid of getting it, but you sound so... brave!! How doyou do it?? I will add you to my prayers & I hope verything works out for you. I really do. I am here if you need anything at all!! xo

Tomatoe Creek Prims said...

I just came from a visit at FarmHouse Blessings, and I know the feeling when they tell you what they may think. Mine, thank the Lord, was folded tissue but I do remember the fear and at that moment turning to God. I will pray for you Cora, please know that!

Blessings Rondell

Sugarplum Cottage said...

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened" Matthew 7:7,8

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Cora and I want you to beleive you are on Holy ground, take off your shoes and sit at Jesus feet and let the only concern you have, be the glory of the Father and the glory of the Son, through the power of his Holy Spirit. Remain in him and he will meet your needs whether they be healing, comfort, courage, strength or reassurance. In Jesus' name I pray for peace and compassion be upon you. Hugs, RoseMarie

GardenGoose said...

you are in my prayers Cora. may God give you the wisdom to make the correct choices in your treatment options, and may He give you the grace/peace in your heart to make it through what lies ahead on the journey.

Julie said...

I'm so sorry, Miss Cora.
What a blessing and an inspiration, you are, to continue to see how great our God is through this.
You have so many praying for you!
God is so good!
Many Blessings and much peace,
Julie

2 Much Farm Primitives said...

My dear, dear Friend. You'll be in my prayers. Sometimes trials like these don't mean the end, as much as they "force" us to make a new beginning. God's hand is still on you, and will guide you in everything you do. One thing I've discovered, is HE'S the master physician. When my daughter was diagnosed with stage 4 cervical cancer and went in for surgery, after 2 separate diagnoses, nothing could be found. I know God's plan is different for everybody, but it's always the perfect plan.

Thank you for being there for me....and I'll certainly be here for you :)

"Call" me anytime.

Love ya girl,
Vic

LINDA said...

I have only recently started checking your blog but this is still a tremendous jolt of reality for me. I will pray for you, Cora, because it seems that you are like a Mother to some, a Sister to some and a great friend to many.
I trust that you believe God has a perfect plan for you and that all you can ask of your self is to follow Him to the glory when He calls. It may not be in the plan just yet. Science has made huge strides in treating cancer. It is not an automatic death sentence.
I will pray because we haven't gotten to know each other well enough and we all need more time....

Deborah said...

Thank you so much for visiting my blog. I will be praying for you!
I hope you don't mind me adding your blog to my links.

Kay said...

You are always in my heart and my prayers. I am adding extra prayers for you as you travel this pathway. God is holding your hand and will lead you every step of the way!!

Hugs and love,
Kay

Char5 said...

Dearest Cora,

You are in my prayers. I know that the Lord will lead you through this valley, hold tight to His unseen hand.

Love in Christ,
Charlotte in WV

Debra said...

I'm praying for you , too! We all need one another in this life. It is so easy to say comfort words, but hard to walk through those hard times when we can't even pray ourselves. God has walked me through the shadow of death, and on to the sunshine, still here on planet earth! He's sure not done with me yet.Please keep looking up...Debra

Toby Parsons said...

Oh Cora, I am just now learning of this. I will be praying, continually. You are a dear person, and your love for our Lord is clear. :) He 'will' see you through this. He is our rock. I pray that you can have peace and comfort in Him.

Many blessings.

Rose Mary said...

Cora, I will be praying for you, too! I know that God knows the perfect path for you and will be with you all the way. God will give you the strength you need to face this challenge.

R~Mary

LindaSueBuhl said...

We will add you to our prayers - from the loving comments posted it is obvious the Lord will be hearing plenty about His precious child Cora. A cancer diagnosis is devastating news yet all of us know it is like everything in life - one step at a time. Scripture says "don't worry about tomorrow - it has worries enough of it's own" - so today - you are loved, prayed for and live in a time where medical science offers much. I've been through cancer treatment with my late husband- know the challenges and truly - blogging about it is a wonderful exercise in maintaining your perspective. Bless you sister in Christ

YD's a little bit of everything place said...

Cora,

I do not really know you but I know that you have visited my blog a few times and I have came here a few times. Just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts.
Good luck and stay strong!

SimpleFolk said...

Your words and faith are such a blessing. I have learned to rejoice in my trials. They made Jesus SO real to me, like He was standing right next to me holding my hand. There is peace is such a personal relationship with Him. I will be praying on your behalf. Please keep us posted as you can.

Amy
http://www.homesteadblogger.com/simplefolk/